Day #8 - Stress Recovery - The Day I Found My Way Back

I keep discovering the same truth, time and again. I’m not happy if I don’t live my life in order.

I don’t mean doing things in the same order - I absolutely can not do that. I don’t even drive the same route twice, if I can help it. Life - my life - is meant to be lived in varying degrees of chaos, punctuated by crazy projects with tough deadlines and intense relationships driven by love. My style of living doesn’t lend itself to predictability or doing things in the same order, day after day. Absolutely not.

The order I’m talking about (and yes, I’m wishing there was a synonym for order in this scenario, if you have one to suggest) is priorities - not time constraints.

God really does have to come first. And I mean, all in. I need to wake up and thank Him for the day. I need to take all things to Him each day - my fears, concerns, worries, struggles & my thankfulness, joy overflowing, gratefulness. ALL of IT!

He loved me enough to send his son to die for me. Jesus loved me enough to bear my sins on the cross, The Holy Spirit loves me enough to gently convict me when I lose my way.

But I’ll be honest, this week didn’t feel so gentle. As I write this, tears roll down my face. I lost perspective & sank deep for lack of trying. I didn’t wake up remembering God first, spend time with him like I should, pray enough or praise enough. And the resulting pain of loss of relationship I felt? It was my fault.

I missed the relationship that I ignored. Of course I sank deep into despair.

I pray this recognition and public acknowledgment will serve as my reminder before I step back into this pain again. For God gave me a life - a life abundant. I’m ready to claim it!